Curt is a guy doing the thing he gains most passion from. You (and I) can learn a lot from his site which I have to say gets better the longer he is blogging, and I can draw a considerable amount of solace and inspiration.
This article struck me today:
1) Restlessness, boredom and fatigue, even after a vacation.
2) The Call. Here we sense the possibility of a new journey beckoning to us. But "the call" is accompanied by fear of losing control, loss of the known and the comfortable and perhaps, the status associated with it.
3) The Awakening. Denial is broken. Emotional pain increases to the point that it can no longer be ignored.
4) Tug-of-War in the Twilight Zone. Feeling torn between the old self and the still unknown but "emerging" new self. Reflection, not action, is important at this time.
5) Emptying and Letting Go. Releasing old fantasies, expectations, and self-definitions that no longer fit clears the way for new perceptions and allows options to be revealed.
6) Rediscovery and Recognition. Acceptance of loss. Reconnection with the shadow self and a feeling of "coming home."
7) Reintegration and Renewal. The pieces begin to settle into place. Release of energy that has been held or blocked can now be directed towards the new.
Its based on an article by KathyWild and really captures some of the things I feel i need to be doing. I think I might place myself somewhere between 3 and 5 - I haven't quite let go yet but the feelings of loss are very strong.